i'm strung out on..who? <3

Oooh.. i just realized that Closer was not the perfect song. LOL. Turns out it's another Ne-Yo song... Because of You is the more appropriate song. Haha!

Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't

I rode home with Janna today.. we were talking about my stuff and shit like that. I mean, these small talks are so repetitive and i've been telling her and complaining to her over and over and over. I love it that she doesn't mind. :p So I told her, somethin like this

Trish: Buti na lang I'm single...
Janna: Yeah kasi if not kawawa boyfriend mo.
Trish: No. I'm not like that if may commitment.
Janna: Yeah but it's not yet the right time. It's fun to be single.
(both of us pause)
Both: Yeahh...

Funny. But seriously, I won't be posting about this on a..uh, regular day. But I sort of need to organize my thoughts. I'm feeling all twisty mentally and maybe even a bit emotionally. But on the emotional note, it's nothing too serious. Just a couple of thoughts i'm playing with. A couple of possibilities i'm juggling around.

Oh dilemma. I need it when I want it, I want it when I don't. There's not a lot of choices there, huh? :p I'm tellin myself to stop, just like I did a couple of weeks ago, or months. But I know that's never gonna happen.

I got a problem an' I (don’t know what to do about it)
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it.
I’m Taken by the thought of it

When to quit? That's the problem. Most often, we gotta know when to pull back. We gotta know when enough is enough. In history, a lot of men, great and un-great, went down because they didn't know when it was time to turn around and quit. Or even if they knew it, they didn't do it anyway.

Ah.. ambition IS fatal. enemy to success. haha. But without the ambition in the first place, where would the drive be? Check me out, i'm on overdrive. Oh dear..INSATIABILITY is what i'm feeling.

Think of it ev'ry second
I can't get nothin' done
Only concern is the next time... I’m gonna get me some
'Know I should stay away from, 'cause it's no good for me
I try an' try but my obsession... won't let me leave

I can't get these thoughts out of my head. I'm prolly not making sense to anyone who reads this. Only Iris and Janna know what the shit is going on with me right now. I'm not making a big deal. It's not so much a problem as people might be thinking it is. It's actually very amusing. The situation's very light and humorous. And one day, imma be lookin back and imma remember and imma be like, good times good times eh. Hahaha!

Oh aside from Iris and Janna, another guy also knows. Haha. He doesn't know a lot of details though, but he knows the story in general. He doesn't know the specifics..like the names, the history, the places, the events, whatever. But needless, it was funny when I told him and he gave me his advice. He told me to not take anything less than what I deserve. It was helluh funny. Can't put the whole thing here, it's a dead giveaway. But i looooove it! Haha.

And I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction
I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move

There's the addiction, yes. But oh..i'm so strung out on who. :p

Just a note, to anyone who's a someone...don't get worried okay. And no violent reactions. I know it sounds a bit, umm..like a real dilemma. But if I get my head straight and together and all that, there's no dilemma. Just a lot of thoughts and possibilities that I'm toying around with. :) And i just can't help but think about em. Since they're so damn possible! Haha. :D

spoiled. :/

i normally don't sound like this. so forgive forgive, if i sound like a spoiled unfeeling bitch. :-/ so shallow, too.


you know how they say you can't always get what you want? well, yeah. i've heard it.


but the thing is. when it comes to some things..SOME things, in particular..i always get what i want. even if i don't get it WHEN i want it. but rest assured, i HAVE to get it. it's a high. we all have our highs..this is one of mine.


i don't know when to pull away, or when to say no. ah, but don't we all? i don't know when the game's done..coz for me it ain't done, till i win. sigh. HAAAY!!


that's why i'm always in a dilemma when 'situation' comes. it drives me insane. i hate it. i don't go looking for these things to just happen to me, you know? but it doesn't change a thing now does it? i still end up finding myself in these situations. it still happens. and then, obssession..


like hell, it is.
i can't not have it..


kinda like do or die.
tough luck.

I WANT IT JUST BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN.

aw, i hate this feeling talaga.
i wish i could get down and specific to the details so i won't be rambling about some mambo jambo..but sorry folks, even a little info is already too much info. lols.

i have this thing with winning. it can't be helped. :) but haven't you ever had that feeling that you know you can have something, but there's just a teensy-bitsy bit of detail standing in your way. and from your point of view, it's not even that important at all. but nevertheless, we are given the choice to respect it and walk away. or just go for the gold anyway.


and maybe when i say go for the gold, i don't have any intention of keeping "it". maybe just spend a few days, enjoy and play with it. it has nothing at all to do with who owns it, just a matter of being able to have it coz you can..not coz you want it.


after all, that's the only reason you want it anyway, because you can. and when you're done with it, the shine and shimmer that seemed to attract you to it in the first place, is just a thing of the past...

(i'm adding this next part 7 hours after i originally posted this:)
i can't get any into any more detail.. you folks might find out what i'm talking about. lol. or WHO. :p curious friends, you will never know. LOL. someone's already asking me who. sorry, babe.

here's a song.. fits just right. (turn the music off at the right hand side of the page if ur gonna play this vid.)

Closer - Ne-Yo

Happy Tree Friends :)

Movie or show ratings--G, PG13, PG18, R18, etc.
Ah.. but have you ever heard of CV? Lols. It stands for Cartoon Violence.

From Mondo Media comes a brilliant but twisted cartoon show. It's definitely not made for small kids or big babies. Lol. It's amusing and cute..and barbaric and morbid. LOL. If you've never heard of Happy Tree Friends... maaaahn, where have you been all your life? Haha. If you like South Park for the reason that Kenny keeps on dying, I recommend you watch HTF. Haha.

I remember how I used to watch an episode of this at least once a day. It was part of my daily routine. Enjoy a short HTF episode. They usually last for only a few minutes...for a reason. Haha. Cute cuddly things... :))

You can check out their website and meet the cast that never dies, haha. They have all the episodes there. And it loads fast anyway. It's faster to access it there than watch it on YouTube.
Click this Link--> Happy Tree Friends Website

Here's one, but it's from YouTube so try letting it load completely first. This episode's called "Eye Candy" LMAO. But I kid you not, this one is sick. Haha :)) Enjoy!~