Changed in the Lord
Like I said, I would be transferring here some of my old blog posts. I have a lot of blogs, so they're all kind of scattered. But i'll be putting in the bits that are most relevant to me.. :) Here's one.
"Changed; in the Lord" (August 03, 2005)
Even if it may take me forever to really grasp the concept of a so-called "lasting happiness"; at least there are moments wherein i feel happy, despite the fact that there are tears streaming down my cheeks.
Perhaps I have more than one purpose that's why I'm here. And one of the most important of them all is my purpose for God. After all, without Him.. where would I be?
Last saturday, I went to YOF for the 2nd time. I cried. again. yes, i know. again. And it was that saturday wherein I made the best decision of my life. I acknowledged my fears (i guess....), my sins, and all the mistakes in my life. I acknowledged ME. And I asked the Lord to change me, save me and take me into His arms. And before I knew it...there I was in front. And I wasn't alone. What I felt that time was a mixture of joy, sadness and confusion. And despite the fact that I was confused for some reason..I also felt SURE. I felt sure that I wanted a new life and that I wanted to be changed. And maybe I haven't totally entered that new life yet... but i know that i am advancing towards it.
I guess, there really are second chances in everything. Sometimes we're just too blind or too scared to take it.
I guess, things would be better.. I really do hope so. 'Coz im tired of living the way I lived. I want it all to change........
Posted on August 03, 2005
I've gone through a signifcant amount of things that...changes a person. And it really doesn't matter how young you are, or how old you are, or how much you've already gone through. The Lord has His reasons just as much as He has His ways. And once we've lost sight of that, we're pretty much lost. Just a split second that we mix hesitation with our faith, that split second just cost us a wrong turn. And in effect, if you were as unfortunate and blind as I was, would cost u more wrong turns.
We all have second chances. And I suggest we grasp them the moment it comes knocking. No, it's not because it may never come again. But simply because it just feels damn better to be living the right path than straying off to some God-forsaken path. Why do we have to wait a little bit longer to do the right thing if we have a chance to do it now?
I don't feel like writing about it now, but I'll be talking about my spiritual journey. LOL. It was a surely surely interesting ride. Interesting and profound. :)
Oh, and lastly, here's a comment I got from my Aunt. It's beautiful. :) Tough love. haha.
Comment from my Aunt D:
You've been through so much emotional turmoil as early as 5 years old. I know you have so many what if's and if only questions in your mind at this point in time and I know at night you cry when you sleep. I would give everything in the world to spare you from all these.. BUT what will that do to you then? ^_^ Though I will not be able to protect you from the world's madness I will always be here for you with my prayer for HIM to hold your hand whereever you go. It doesn't mean though that He will spare you from the hurt and pain that will come your way, but believe me the Lord will be faithful with you every step of the way and that step no matter how painful will bring out the best in you, it will mold your character. Trust in HIM, never let go. For He is the only one in this universe who will never leave you nor forsake you. No matter what, you will always be loved.
There is this line in a song that goes like this:
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When I'm feeling weak and my pain walks down a one way street, I look above, and I know I'll always be bless with love.
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Love others as you love yourself. I love you and I am soooo proud of you. ^_^ My beloved niece and our firstborn.
PS: stay away from personal inflicted tatoos OKAY! Don't do what I did!!
Posted by: Doll August 26, 2005 12:20 AM
Like I said, tough love. :D
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