The Afterlife: The Life After Life.

Why do people obsess so much about the after life? We call them suicidal. But why do they become suicidal? Is it just so much about ending their miserable lives, or is there something more? They're not so different from us, nor are we from them. We are all looking for answers. And we do stupid things in hopes of getting them.

There was a time, I sort of used to be suicidal. Or so they say. But how i felt then was that it wasn't really about ending life. It was merely the thought of ending it that seemed so attractive. There's that concept; it was that idiotic thought that you'd eventually end up somewhere where it doesn't hurt, where you're no longer in pain, where you're not miserable, where you are finally at peace. Even for just a moment.

And then there is also that clarity thing going on as you bleed out and then you feel stupid. And you just sort of know there's no such place. It doesn't get any clearer than that. All of a sudden, our technicolor worlds become oversimplified. And for a moment there is silence and utter simplicity, where there are no grey areas. Just plain black and white.

The solutions to all our problem become so simple. And you feel like you can do anything. And you just sort of know what's right and what isn't. What we thought to be so complicated, in truth, really isn't. But then the feeling goes away. That feeling of godliness the you could conquer all...as good as it feels, it goes away. And then we're back to our technicolored world, where everything is complex and nothing can be simplified, much less oversimplified.

So this human obsession about the life after life, it's not really about dying. We take away moments from this life to experience a good 90 seconds in the one after it. And in those moments, they literally take our breaths away.They literally make our hearts stop. And in the irony of it all, we understand completely what it's like to live and what it's like to love. And those are best 90 seconds of our lives.