spoiled. :/

i normally don't sound like this. so forgive forgive, if i sound like a spoiled unfeeling bitch. :-/ so shallow, too.


you know how they say you can't always get what you want? well, yeah. i've heard it.


but the thing is. when it comes to some things..SOME things, in particular..i always get what i want. even if i don't get it WHEN i want it. but rest assured, i HAVE to get it. it's a high. we all have our highs..this is one of mine.


i don't know when to pull away, or when to say no. ah, but don't we all? i don't know when the game's done..coz for me it ain't done, till i win. sigh. HAAAY!!


that's why i'm always in a dilemma when 'situation' comes. it drives me insane. i hate it. i don't go looking for these things to just happen to me, you know? but it doesn't change a thing now does it? i still end up finding myself in these situations. it still happens. and then, obssession..


like hell, it is.
i can't not have it..


kinda like do or die.
tough luck.

I WANT IT JUST BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN.

aw, i hate this feeling talaga.
i wish i could get down and specific to the details so i won't be rambling about some mambo jambo..but sorry folks, even a little info is already too much info. lols.

i have this thing with winning. it can't be helped. :) but haven't you ever had that feeling that you know you can have something, but there's just a teensy-bitsy bit of detail standing in your way. and from your point of view, it's not even that important at all. but nevertheless, we are given the choice to respect it and walk away. or just go for the gold anyway.


and maybe when i say go for the gold, i don't have any intention of keeping "it". maybe just spend a few days, enjoy and play with it. it has nothing at all to do with who owns it, just a matter of being able to have it coz you can..not coz you want it.


after all, that's the only reason you want it anyway, because you can. and when you're done with it, the shine and shimmer that seemed to attract you to it in the first place, is just a thing of the past...

(i'm adding this next part 7 hours after i originally posted this:)
i can't get any into any more detail.. you folks might find out what i'm talking about. lol. or WHO. :p curious friends, you will never know. LOL. someone's already asking me who. sorry, babe.

here's a song.. fits just right. (turn the music off at the right hand side of the page if ur gonna play this vid.)

Closer - Ne-Yo